Having one of my new best friends working at Barnes and Noble is not helping my 'obsession' with Karen Kingbury's books. Seriously, just a few more books to go and I will own everything she has written. I think, unless she has written more since the last time I checked. I haven't even read all of the ones that I own yet! (School does that to you!) One of the series she is writing, Kayla, Mrs Schatzmen, and Me are so into it. The next book in the series doesn't come out till the end of this month. Mary was hanging out in our room and saw all my books and told me she could get us the next book. So, she pre-ordered it for us. She called me the next day, and I got the book! I have already finished reading it before it is even out! I think that is pretty cool! Maybe its just me!
Grant, our old youth pastor, called Redeeming Love, "Christian girl's porn", or something like that. Ya, romance books are addicting and really really bad. I don't think I would put Redeeming Love in that category, seriously, it taught me more about myself and my relationship with God and boys than another book (besides the Bible of course). And it is basically the book is Hosea in much more detail. And the Bible is definitely not porn! But Karen Kingsbury, I could probably say she is close to a typical romance writer. Secular romance books are bad. Christian romance books aren't healthy if you get to lost in that world. I think that the way they have relationships and handle trials is the correct way to handle them. Since we are human, it doesn't always work out that way, but it is the untimate goal, and if we were perfect. I think that is what they would look like.
Me and Kayla were taking about this yesterday. While the books Karen Kingsbury writes are very much so completely Christian, they are still addicting. The couples in the book are not perfect, but they seem to be perfect, and they always have the best relationship with God. Yes, they have hard times, and times when they fall away from each other and God. But they always find a way back. We were talking about how its hard to remember that the people in the book are fake, and no guy is going to be that perfect. And instead of comparing our relationships with God and out boyfriends to the ones in the book, we need to be aware that people aren't ever going to be perfect. And thats hard to do, because every girl wants the perfect romance story that are in these books. But, frankly, thats not real life.
Kayla asked me if I ever thing "Maybe in two years I will meet the most perfect guy ever and then feel like I settled for less." Yes, I think that, because I'm a girl, and I want that fairy tale romance every girl dreams and me and Dan aren't perfect. (Shocking, I know!) But I also know what God has shared with me about my future and I have to trust that he knows what's best for me. Because, well he is God, so he does know! I could be single my whole entire life if I sit around and say "There is someone better out there." Frankly, there isn't. If God said 'this is who your man is', then, well he is the perfect guy for me. Because what God makes, is perfect. But, unfortunately because we are human and sin, we are going to screw it up. No one is perfect in every way. One guy might be really good in one thing, and really bad in another, while a different guy is bad in that one thing, and good in the other. I feel like I should say here how you know who you are suppose to be with. But, guess what. I don't know that! haha! All you can know if trust God, and love who he is put in your life and told you to love. Thats all I know, thats all I am trying to do. (I suck at it allot though, honestly)
Me and Kayla were apparently in the mood to talk about love yesterday. We were discussing how you knew you were in love, or when you fell in love. I think we decided that, there isn't a certian point that you fall in love. Love is a process. I said that I think that maybe after about 20 years of marriage, when you have shown each other you love them through ups and downs and worked through life together. Then, you can honestly say you are 'in love' with each other. Right now, I love Dan, but we haven't had the chance of a life time to act it out like our parents have. And that is what being in love is. They can truthfully say they are in love with each other. Me and Dan just know we can love each other if we decide to commit to that.
This brings me to what God has been whispering to me lately...ok pounding into my thick headed skull! Those fairytale romances are possible. My Grandparents have it. Karen and Bart Brown have it. But, not too many people have it. Why? Because it takes a ton of work, and 100% commitment from both sides. I find myself wanting an amazing relationship with my boyfriend, and the perfect relationship with God. But, what do I do to make it that way? Nothing, I just sit and think "This needs to be better in my relationships.". Then I just sit there and wait for it to get better. And God (and Dan) are sitting there saying "Hello!! Get off your lazy but and do something about it!". I am so aware that things in life aren't handed to people in a silver platter, but people have to work for what they have. Because of that you would think that I would know that I can expect relational and spiritual things to just be handed to me. But no. I'm a silly selfish lazy stupid girl, who hasn't been doing anything for herself lately, but expecting other people to just give it to me.
Ok, just two more things.1. I love having my best friend as a roommate. We seriously stay up to insane hours of the morning talking about deep meaningful stuff. Not just love and boys, but everything. I don't know how other girls just live with some stranger having small talk all the time. Seriously...I'm so thankful that I get to live with Kayla. And she says I havent ever annoyed her. I think thats a lie! haha2. If you read all if this. Thats so amazing! Give yourself a hug!
