WHY?
A good friend of mine died last night. She was driving home from school to spend Easter with her family. She fell asleep and crossed the median and never made it home. I know God has a plan and timing for everyone. But sometimes I wonder why he takes good people. She could have done so many amazing things for God here on earth. Why cant God let her stay a little longer. Why take a girl when she is 20 years old who has her whole life and numerous possibilities in front of her. I was thinking about this in the car driving today and I just bawled. Her dad is never going to get to walk her down the isle. her family never gets to see her walk across the stage graduating from college. Everyday of their life is going to be completely different because a part of them is missing. I cant even imagine their holidays being joyful times.
Me and her were not amazingly close friends. But, we went to church together, small groups, worked together and school together. So we hung out a lot, and we had all the same friends. Her and my brother were really really close. They worked at Java together for several years. They both go to school in Tennessee. Normally they ride back together to save gas. He would have been with her, but he couldn't get off work(until this happened...he is home for the week now). Part of me thinks that if he was with her she would have never fallen asleep. But the other part of me is so relieved he is safe. But that is selfish, and I hate myself for feeling that. Dan was even closer to her than my brother was. They worked together at Java to, and graduated together. They went to prom together. She was one of his best friends. He is the only person I have seen so far, He hasn't talked yet, obviously. But I can see in his eyes, he is hurting so bad. I wish I could take it all away for him, and everyone!! I am hurting so much for him and my brother right now. Of course, her and her family. I just cant imagine.
I got home today and hugged my sister for the longest time. I am so thankful that God has blessed my family in that way. I was talking to a friend the other night about death before all of this happened. He was talking about loosing people he was close to and asked me if I had. God has really blessed me in that area. I never really knew my grandfather, so this girl is the closest person to me that is now gone. This is going to be a hard weekend. seeing friends we haven't seen in forever, but it wont be at all happy, because a huge part of our group is not going to be there.
I'm not going back to Faetteville till late Tuesday night, So I will see you guys then.
Me and her were not amazingly close friends. But, we went to church together, small groups, worked together and school together. So we hung out a lot, and we had all the same friends. Her and my brother were really really close. They worked at Java together for several years. They both go to school in Tennessee. Normally they ride back together to save gas. He would have been with her, but he couldn't get off work(until this happened...he is home for the week now). Part of me thinks that if he was with her she would have never fallen asleep. But the other part of me is so relieved he is safe. But that is selfish, and I hate myself for feeling that. Dan was even closer to her than my brother was. They worked together at Java to, and graduated together. They went to prom together. She was one of his best friends. He is the only person I have seen so far, He hasn't talked yet, obviously. But I can see in his eyes, he is hurting so bad. I wish I could take it all away for him, and everyone!! I am hurting so much for him and my brother right now. Of course, her and her family. I just cant imagine.
I got home today and hugged my sister for the longest time. I am so thankful that God has blessed my family in that way. I was talking to a friend the other night about death before all of this happened. He was talking about loosing people he was close to and asked me if I had. God has really blessed me in that area. I never really knew my grandfather, so this girl is the closest person to me that is now gone. This is going to be a hard weekend. seeing friends we haven't seen in forever, but it wont be at all happy, because a huge part of our group is not going to be there.
I'm not going back to Faetteville till late Tuesday night, So I will see you guys then.
I'm so sorry. What a weekend for it to happen. And you are very blessed that you haven't had many deaths. I've lost 2 friends, 1 grandparent, and 3 of my friends lost their moms.
Posted by
Allison |
April 8, 2007 at 8:29 PM